Emotions and thoughts all over the place....from the good memories to the those moments that I actually regret. Some would say count it a privilege that I knew this moment was coming, and while I did (and do), how do you adequately prepare for the death of a loved one. My grandmother was my rock. There are so many unfulfilled dreams that I wanted my grandmother to witness and now she will not physically be able to. Yeah that's a tough pill to swallow when your major support system is no longer with you. My desire is to please her and to live a life that she would have been proud of.
Pauline James - you will forever be in my heart and I'm taking you with me everywhere I go. Although you are physically gone, there shall come a time when we will be together again. For now, it hurts VERY deeply. I want you HERE but free from the pain/suffering. I know where you are and I know you're looking down on us all. Honestly, there are some moments that are easier than others. I'm still able to laugh, yet it seems like those moments are few and far between.
Well....that's it for now. Until next time....
xoxo Grandma xoxo
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I know that you will miss your grandmother. Having someone who is everything that you need is an amazing gift that we are all gifted with. What we do with them is on us. You loved, cherished, and made the best of times with her. KNowing where she is, can be comforting. Know that she supports you from where she is and will walk through life with you always. Although she is absent from the physical body, she will always be with you in spirit and in your heart. Love you and I know that in time things will get better. My prayers are with you and your family.
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